I Am Not Weak

I like to see myself as a mighty beast who could stand against hurricanes. Alas, am I just a wolf in sheep's clothing? That I feel. I wear the mask, but who am I really? Beneath the cold strong eyes of this wolf, lie a small being with a fragile heart. In truth, those close to me see me for how I really appear;

Weak, small, emotional, and childish. I am treated like a child, though I am not one. I have a short fuse, but no one really knows that when I'm angry, I'm really just hurt… But I run to my hideaway, waiting for my fire to die again so not to burn anyone. Do my emotions make me weak, too?

Even when I feel incapable, I am still used as an emotion sponge. People know I listen, and lean on me. Sometimes the weight is too much, but I try not to complain. But when I need to lean, I just fall because no one is there. Luckily I'm small… Because, y'know… The smaller they are, the lighter they fall, right? So no one needs to worry, I wont shatter… I never said I wont bruise and crack, though.

What people never see is my fire. I am always wearing my wolf mask to look strong, it's very rare a person should see who I really am. If I take my mask off for you, will you think I'm weak? Am I easily set aflame by the problems I face? Would I drown at the moment my head goes under water? Am I weak?

My appearance is a curse… To be judged for how I look.

I am not weak. I can move mountains if I try. I have stood in a warzone for three years, and have only bent, not break. My fire is the spirit within me, it keeps me ambitious, so I follow what I set my heart on- even if the road has bruised and hurt me. I have been kicked around and thrown by trials and tribulations, and been beneath the foot of giants… I've settled fights, and carried the weak… But such acts are quickly forgotten by others. And when I cry? It does not make me feeble… It means I've been strong for too long.
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The original title was either "The Curse" or "The Mask".


Personal vent art. In my art when I draw myself, I am most often depicted as a Deku Scrub, or a Wolf. They fit me the most…

Just… For a long time, I've been dealing with things that are bigger than me, but I force myself to keep carrying it all.
I'm sorry. Just ughh… Hope tomorrow's better than today.

And if you're wondering why I look like Iris, Iris was designed after me when I first made her. So TECHNICALLY, she looks like me rather than me looking like her. If that makes sense.




Made in MS Paint and Paint Tool SAI.
Deku Scrubs/ LoZ © Nintendo.